And the Lessons Keep on Coming

It's good to be home.......but it's not so good to be home.

Let me explain.

I've had A LOT of travel these last six weeks. I like to travel but I like coming home every now and then as well. I've had the opportunity to sit under some of the most awesome teaching I've ever experienced in my life during this time. I had the blessing of being able to serve on a men's weekend. Still, Most of my time away has been spent in Ohio with my Mom.

The good part....Mom is doing her rehab and progressing fairly nicely.

The hard part...she's putting way too much weight on her bad leg, in an effort to prove she can walk, and it's doing more damage than good. In addition to all this, she's not thinking very clearly and has a really hard time with short term memory. So, somehow, she has convinced herself that she can go home if she can demonstrate that she's able to walk so she works too hard to walk.

Mom's not the easiest person to get along with, at times, and can be a real handful when she sets her mind on something. I have to give credit to the staff at the facility she's in. They have been absolute angels and have been a blessing in every way.

So, bottom line: Mom's in a great place, she's getting top notch care, her daily needs are met and she's safe. I should be a happy guy but somehow, my stomach is all tied up in knots.

Releasing all this to the Lord is harder than I thought it would be. I keep going back to the reality that, in spite of how Mom acts, I am to love her and honor her if I am to love and honor God in my life. She was created in God's image and He loves her so much, He has somehow allowed all this in to her life.

As He refines her, it's hard to see that it's not my job to speed up the process and give Him a hand. The amazing thing about all this is that, through the same circumstances, He can refine her and me at the same time.